Again?

Within one month from the death of my grandmother, we are being faced with the reality of death once again. Todd's step-father, Ronnie, is currently in Jackson Hospital with several broken bones (from recent falls) and lung cancer that has progressed so that there is no treatment for him. The treatment plan at this point is to make him comfortable.

As I was walking into the hospital last night a flood of emotions hit me. My heart was racing and I began to cry. I know that Memaw is not there, but just knowing that is where she took her last breath is still hard to come to terms with. Death in itself is hard to come to terms with. As we were in the waiting room I replayed the events that took place for the 1 week that we were at Jackson Hospital. I remembered the fears, questions, concerns and realization that Memaw was not coming home this time. She was going to her eternal home. I felt for Brenda (my mother-in-law) because I knew all to well of what she is going to have to face in the next few days. Tough questions, hard decisions, and knowing that she is going to have to let go. Those feelings are still real for me at this point.

It was really no secret for anyone in our family that Memaw was beginning to go down hill. I know that it was the Lord that lead me to start praying for peace and comfort for our family when the time came for Memaw to pass. I didn't know why at the time this was my prayer, but I went with it. I prayer for peace for Memaw and I prayed for peace for us, her family. I prayed that her passing be swift and peaceful and I believe that God answered our prayers. The situation wasn't exactly how any family imagines there loved one passing, but I believe Memaw was at peace with knowing that all of her family was with her as she took her last breath. Mom, Dad, Aunt Janice, Debbie, me, Leslie, Jeremy, Teresa, Matt, Aunt Ann, Aunt Marie and R.B. where all in the room with her. I believe that she felt safe and secure in knowing that we were there with her. Her passing was swift and peaceful and I know that was God answering my prayer.

I am now praying for peace and understanding for Todd's family, now. I'm not sure where Ronnie or Brenda stands in their faith in Jesus, so my prayer is that the will see him through this situation. I pray that Ronnie is not in pain and passes swiftly and peacefully if that is God's will.